Elliot: Hey so I dont have a comment back button but I wanted to say thank you for your kind words. It really does warm my heart that you would pray for me. Thanks again, you are an amazing person!!!!
So its 1:18am and I have finally sat and relaxed and cleared my mind. The only problem with that is as soon as that happens the pain sets in. If I keep busy enough I can trick myself into believing Im ok. Truth is... I'm not. I miss you more then words or tears can express. I FEEL the lose of you. I feel this empty hole where your love once was. I know you still love me, I know you're probably watching me from beyond this world. But it hurts. I want to hug you. I want to talk to you. I want to travel and explore with you. It hurts. It really hurts. Grandmommy why did you have to go. I would give anything to have you back. I miss you so much and being here alone in this room for the first time I actually have time to realize what happened. I have time to let it sink it. I wish I could distract myself 24/7... Im not ready to say goodbye. But I have to. Its hard to grasp, a world without you in it. I miss you. I hurt. I love you
Elliot: Hey so I dont have a comment back button but I wanted to say thank you for your kind words. It really does warm my heart that you would pray for me. Thanks again, you are an amazing person!!!!
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Long couple of days guys!! So I have been supervising the editing of the first music video, helped lay down some vocals for a track, am creating a new billion dollar idea and drinking champage... lots of champagne. I just feel like every day is a freaking celebration lately. As it should be, things are GREAT! I went and visited some dear friends at Park La Brea recently. James May, Freddie Stroma, Jesus Solorio and the gorgeous Rana Roy. It was great to seeing them and they are ALL amazing talented actors and in Jesus's case dancer as well (hello have you ever watched SYTYCD). Great things coming from the peanut galories. Oh and I am SOOOOO jelly of Rana, she was born in dubai. DU-FUCKIN-BAI! Have you googled or youtubed that place? Insanely beautiful. I WILL be there soon. Ohhh I will... and thats my new goal. Going to East Hamptons to visit Diana this spring and hopefully will somehow get to Dubai in the summer. I'll keep you updated on that dream.
Like always- keepin it classy (and skinny, did I mention I lost 6lbs?!?!?! Hoorayyyy) xoxo B You are too effing adorable!! I dont mind that you called me Brit LOL. Thanks for reading/commenting!! As soon as the footage gets edited you'll be able to see my choreography, casting, set design,co directing, and co editing! It was sooooooo freaking hard to get together and it was BEYOND stressful BUT it came together... yayyyy!!!!! Im excited to show you! Behind the scenes footage coming soon,
Talk soon, xoxo B No for real I am on some other worldly shit right now! I have sent emails out to 60 LA Casting extras, 30 craigslist extras, taught and refined the dance, found a new location, found new camera man/camera, got a back up location, moved out of an old apartment unit into a new one AND still found time to work out all in ONE MOTHER F'IN NIGHT! This idea has blossomed into something truly amazing and I cant wait to share the details with you. Thanks for reading. Dont be afraid to comment. Lets start a chat... I dont bite... hard LOL
Night yall!! Long day tomorrow... Keepin it classy- LOVES IT xoxo B The youtube page I have been working on just recently evolved to something BIGGER AND BETTER! World prepare for Creative Media Outlet. Its a place where professional and aspiring artists can let their creative juices flow and you will get all the info here first! Im shooting the first music video tomorrow and the talent that will be on set is UNBELIEVABLE! Stylists, designers, models, hair and make up artists, camera people and of course DANCERS. Wow, unbelievable. Wait till you see the finished product, it will blow your mind! I am starting a revolution and you get to hear about it before anyone else. If you have any special talents and live in the Los Angeles area comment me and I'll find a place to fit you in. Believe me you want to be apart of this NOW, its going to be huge. I couldnt be more excited!!! More info to come and like always...
Keepin it classy xoxo B So I have been working with the Hasslehoff sisters and let me tell you, these girls are GORGEOUS! They are hella talented sisters and really take their craft seriously. Oh and another thing... they can ACTUALLY sing. Let me give you a quote, "well I wanted a head piece mic so I could dance full out but then I couldnt belt so Im using a mic. I'll still be full out dancing though", YES BITCH! Amazing personalities, great hearts and full of talent. You go girls!!!!
In other news, we are house searching! Thats right babies, mama is getting a new home! Im super amped and will definitely be posting pictures as soon as I get them! Its about damn time though you guys. You have NO idea! Lol. Also I have such an amazing concept for my first youtube music video!! It is going to be unbelievable. Shooting it tuesday and wednesday! SO amped yall. Like always I'll keep you posted... over and out xoxo B So big shout out to Jenna Hannon for inviting the "Get Lucky with Liv" scouts to an amazing upcoming event. In febuary yours truly along with the beauties invloved with "Love Scouts" will be attending an upscale, VIP private event hosted by the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills Taylor Armstrong. She has gorgeous jewlrey and we get the sneak peek preview! Rockin... Also I'd like to say we are sharing the network with lil miss Paris. Should be interesting, to say the least. In other news I have decided it is time to get a manager!!! Yup, I do not have one... yet. But the search is ONNNN! Kepp you updated on that fun little venture. Oh ps the new dance is made up and about to be taught, filmed and uploaded! About to premire the launch of the new, improved and updated youtube page! Lovin my life, love yours too! Stay blessed. Over and out and like always... Keepin it classy xoxo So I am sitting here watching... 1 night in Paris. Yup Ms Hilton is getting it in on video, well sort of. I'd call it more or less posing, like for reals its hump hump hump and pose. LOL. But hey do what you have to right.
But anyways, I went to San Diego the other night and made like the most delish coffee cakes. No your girl is a pro chef yall! Be proud, shit I am. Didnt know I had it in me. Just guess I am good at everything =) yayyyy for being blessed. But in even bigger news, Oxygen picked up the reality tv show! Thats right bitches living out loud everyday all day but now with cameras and a better check. Hey hey hey! So technically the only person casted is Olivia (hello its HER show) but we'll find out what that means for the rest of us. Detox options anyone? ugh, that means my ass is going to have to cut back on the sugar. Gross, I do NOT like the sound of that. Whatever. Piloxing in the am with a hot asian and a producer for VH1. Updates later... Keep it classy xoxo So long time no post, sorry yall! Its been slightly uneventful as I am getting back into the groove of things out here. Fast pace lifestyle, things change ALL the time. But moving on (like I said), I am meeting up with a good friend of mine Ryan tomorrow. There is ALWAYS something exciting happening with him. No like for reals, Playboy Mansion party (hello old job), celebrity events, you name it- he's there. We're having some kind of mountain top dinner. Should be funnnnnn. And more than that I just found out 2 of my friends are getting reality tv shows! LOL. Yay Cakes and Derrick! OMG and Brandon Thomas (yes the AMAZING singer) just informed me that Omarion, and Boogz are in the works of having their own show. LOL, seriously EVERYONE has one. Its definitely *our* turn. Yupp...
On the dance front I decided I wanted to be the creator of things. So choreography here I come! Thats my new focus, the first dance to come out (drum roll please) S&M by Rihanna. It'll be hot and haute! LOL. Check in with my youtube for more fun vids to come. I'll keep ya posted though! Anywho Im off to get my smog checked (ughhhh I have to get Cali plates- more from the DMV lol) lates xoxoxo So Vegas was unbelievable!!! We had WAYYY too much fun, out partying till 5am ringing in the new year. Now its back to the usual grind. I mean I do have an entire world to take over here people. 2011 is the year of new opportunities, new friends, new business relationship and a new work ethic and focus! Out with the old and in with the new! I am beyond excited for what this new year will bring to me. Im still in the Valley of the Sun (aka Arizona) but I will be heading back to my beloved LA in the next 2 days!! All I have to say is... you betta weerrrkk
Over and out yall, B |